Honesty

I haven't been here for a little while.  My heads been in a bit of a funk.  I have been tempted to visit when I have felt down but I've avoided the temptation to blurt it all out on here.  This is my happy place or it is supposed to be but does that make it honest?  Is everyone happy all the time?  I know the answer to that but if that is the case why do we pretend so much?  Wouldn't life be better for everyone if we didn't?

I don't mean we should all walk around being miserable - not by a long shot.  I do truly believe there is so much in the world to be positive about, but sometimes when things become too much I feel so alone and even though logic tells me otherwise all I see is a world of happy, bubbly people and I wonder what is wrong with me.  I'm discovering through my writing that I am actually pretty normal, or that is the conclusion I am coming to, whatever normal might be.  Maybe I just think I am normal, because it is my definition.

I can't see how it could be normal to be up, bubbly and enthusiastic every second of every day.  Maybe in a fantasy world but even then I don't think so.  Wouldn't we just stagnate?  Isn't a little bit of questioning and discontent necessary to bring about change or at least appreciation for everything life has handed us?  I am asking lots of questions today but that is how my mind works.  The answers come slowly, although sometimes not at all, but I think the secret to our happiness is in the questions that we ask and the answers that we seek.  How else can we hope to understand ourselves?  I have been asking many, many, many questions, maybe even too many over the last week or so but I am happy to say I have also discovered some answers.

I used to ask why and expect something outside of myself to answer.  Often I didn't even want an answer it was more a complaint, a why me, without any effort in discovering the answer on my part required.  That didn't get me far.  Neither has a lot of my practises but I am really trying to change that so I can change funk to spunk and I can move ahead either in a new direction or follow the same path with new purpose and resolve.

There are many different paths to choose,

This one was at Rainbow Beach in QLD

This one on Fraser Island

This one at a beach on the Sunshine Coast

 

But ultimately it will be my decision which direction I choose to head and mine alone and that is something I am going to embrace.  Fear may be natural and to a certain extent necessary but it should never be crippling. 

Life is for living, not just existing!

The beauty of life

I drove 13 hours for a beachside holiday.  It rained the entire time and the beaches were closed.  At home the beaches were open and the sun was shining.  I am not saying I didn't have a great holiday, I did and so did the rest of the family but...

                                               this is only 15 minutes from my home.

              As is this.  Actually, this is only 5 minutes away. 

 

What is my point?  My point is simple really - how often do we go in search of things that are right under our noses, not just beautiful scenery but happiness, purpose and meaning?  Maybe, just maybe, these things too are always right there in front of us if only we choose to notice.

These were taken one from the backyard, the other from the front.  Proof to me that the world really is beautiful.  On the days when that can be hard to believe a little attitude, okay sometimes a big attitude change can make a huge difference.  Our perception of life is our choice.  At any moment we can choose what we wish to focus on.  Why not focus on the good?

I'm focusing on how excited I am that I have discovered how to put photos up.  Next lot will be all my animals.  If you are not a cat lover you may wish to abandon this site immediately because you will be inundated - I have four cats. 

But for now it is time for me to go and do some actual work.